“What am I in the eyes of most people — a nonentity, an eccentric, or an unpleasant person — somebody who has no position in society and will never have; in short, the lowest of the low. All right, then — even if that were absolutely true, then I should one day like to show by my work what such an eccentric, such a nobody, has in his heart." - Vincent Van Gogh|
My "dream", goal, and one single purpose, is to become a Concept Artist, to be able to portray Character/Environment design Digital paintings and Traditional illustrations of an at-least acceptable/honed skill/level. Works of such level/skill that will invoke hope in those that come after me (if i succeed) that they can do the same and attain their own hopes as well. Art is my Road to Damascus.
In this bloody struggle to obliterate my own mediocrity and better myself, if i succeed, My Hope and Goal is to inspire others that achieving their dream is possible, if even a subhuman failure as myself manages to succeed, to give the hope to others that i myself have lacked. I am committed to showing that anyone can achieve their dream and desired level of skill in their chosen passion, and to show what our imagination is capable of. I hope to permanently demolish the idea of "you have to be born with it to be good at something" and turn it into a myth. I hope to show that it is possible to ascend beyond mediocrity through effort and achieve admirable skill. If i fail, it would appear i was wrong, everything i will have so desperately tried to work for and achieve will have been for nothing, and i will accept Nothing but Oblivion as punishment for my pathetic humiliating mediocrity/failure.
An existence of being anything less in life than what the individual desires most, is not an excuse for an existence whatsoever. A conscious being is not obligated to needlessly suffer a life of meaningless toil or submissive conformity within a stagnant mediocre human society with no fulfillment. The individual person is free to extinguish their own existence if/when it becomes evident that their most hoped for aspiration is made unobtainable by the inferior stagnated society that surrounds them.
Favorite/Admired styles/Desperately trying to learn: [Digital painting] [Traditional Drawing] [Environment design] [Character Design] [Concept Art] (interested in manga art on the side)
"Do or die" - ?
“Success or Death” - ?
"It is better to die on your feet than to live on your knees" - Emiliano Zapata
"Death before Dishonor" - ?
"Victory or Death" - ?
"To the bitter end" - ?
I aspire to someday work as a Concept artist in the game industry (though anything utilizing the skill set would be sufficient), whether that goal shall come to pass remains to be seen.
Any lack of "activity" or lapses of time between uploading is because i study daily in most of my free time after work, not because i forgot or stopped, and because of the common courtesy of trying not to upload too much unnecessary trash/learned from failures until my skill in this craft has become acceptably honed.
I hope to eventually be able to afford/go through a training program or school to build my fundamental skills and technical ability, until then, i study on my own time with whatever resource i can find.
“A man sometimes devotes his life to a desire which he is not sure will ever be fulfilled. Those who laugh at this folly are, after all, no more than mere spectators of life" - Ryunosuke Akutagawa
“I could wish for nothing more than to die for a childish dream in which I truly believed" - Ryunosuke Akutagawa
"I have offended God and mankind because my work didn't reach the quality it should have." - Leonardo da Vinci
“I put my heart and my soul into my work, and have lost my mind in the process.” - Vincent Van Gogh
"Suicide is the sincerest form of self-criticism" - Donald Kaul
"Without dreams we are nothing, We might as well be dead" - ?
Advocate of Anti-Psychiatry (among other things as well) and am strictly against the labeling or deeming of anyone as "mentally ill". People have a right to their own mind and body. "Psychiatry" is a Subhuman cult of Atrocity. "Mental illness" Does not exist and is nothing but a pathetic mythical excuse used by bigots to discriminate against anyone they think of as "diseased" or when someone doesn't fit their control fetish guidelines of conformity and "not normal". Involuntarily detaining someone against their will under the guise of "treatment" is an atrocity, you don't get to identify others as "diseased".
Anyone who believes in "Psychiatry" "Psychology" or "Mental illness" is a disgusting worthless pathetic Subhuman bigot worthy of nothing but being put in a gas chamber.
Advocate of Anti-Psychology
Advocate of Pro Suicide.
Advocate of the Right to die belief for all individuals.