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“What am I in the eyes of most people — a nonentity, an eccentric, or an unpleasant person — somebody who has no position in society and will never have; in short, the lowest of the low. All right, then — even if that were absolutely true, then I should one day like to show by my work what such an eccentric, such a nobody, has in his heart." - Vincent Van Gogh
My "dream" is to become a Concept Artist, to be able to portray illustrations and paintings of an at-least acceptable/honed skill/level. Works of such level/skill that will invoke hope in those that come after me (if i succeed) that they can do the same. Art is my Road to Damascus.

In this bloody struggle, if i succeed, My Hope and Goal is to inspire others that achieving their dream is possible, if even a subhuman failure as myself manages to succeed, to give the hope to others that i myself have lacked. I am committed to showing that anyone can achieve their dream and desired level of skill in their chosen passion, and to show what our imagination is capable of. If i fail, it would appear i was wrong, everything i will have so desperately tried to work for and achieve will have been for nothing, and i will accept Nothing but Oblivion for my pathetic failure.
Favorite/Admired styles/Desperately trying to learn: [Traditional Drawing] [Digital painting] [Environment design] [Character Design] [Concept Art] [Manga] (hoping to explore learning manga art but to a lesser extent than my main/full concept art studies)
"Do or die" - ?
“Success or Death” - ?
"It is better to die on your feet than to live on your knees" - Emiliano Zapata
"Death before Dishonor" - ?
"Victory or Death" - ?
"To the bitter end" - ?

Any lack of "activity" or lapses of time between uploading i sincerely apologize for, it is not because i "forgot/stopped" or anything of the sort. It is because everyday for an amount of time i devote/commit to/study from books/tutorials/practice, and any free/or reasonably affordable resource i can get my hands on every day whenever i have time and i prefer not to upload significant amounts of trash until things become presentable or acceptably developed.

I am unlikely to find a way to afford any of these courses/training/workshops or schools that teach amazing illustration/painting skills that would be crucial in becoming adequate in the skills/fundamentals needed for concept art (or almost any other style), I shall dearly hope to one day be able to be in one of them, like the fortunate people who are able to take part in them. But i am left to struggle in "self-taught" efforts and flounder about in the dirt of pointless suffering and death validating mediocrity. Even if i never got a employed position in the industry, my main purpose was only to gain/achieve acceptable skill in my personal work itself

It is an ever apparent fact that for some, achieving one's dream is impossible. Each person is entitled to the right to choose how to live or end their life as they see fit, for whatever reason they decide. It is an undeniable fact that death is more honorable and sensible than the humiliation, defeat, stagnancy, suffering and pointlessness of failure and mediocrity.

"A subhuman pathetic coward tolerates or accepts a life of the suffering of mediocrity/failure, A decent person chooses death" - P.S.C
---The Inability to improve debilitating, The result of artistic attempts humiliating, The admiration of others work decimating.
---Some writers and artists create other worlds in their work because they are disgusted by the one that they live in.
“A man sometimes devotes his life to a desire which he is not sure will ever be fulfilled. Those who laugh at this folly are, after all, no more than mere spectators of life" - Ryunosuke Akutagawa
“I could wish for nothing more than to die for a childish dream in which I truly believed" - Ryunosuke Akutagawa
"I have offended God and mankind because my work didn't reach the quality it should have." - Leonardo da Vinci
“I put my heart and my soul into my work, and have lost my mind in the process.” - Vincent Van Gogh
"Suicide is the sincerest form of self-criticism" - Donald Kaul
"Without dreams we are nothing, We might as well be dead" - ?
Advocate of Anti-Psychiatry (among other things as well) and am strictly against the labeling or deeming of anyone as "mentally ill". People have a right to their own mind and body. "Psychiatry" is a Subhuman cult of Atrocity. "Mental illness" Does not exist and is nothing but a pathetic mythical excuse used by bigots to discriminate against anyone they think of as "diseased" or when someone doesn't fit their control fetish guidelines of conformity and "not normal". Involuntarily detaining someone against their will under the guise of "treatment" is an atrocity, you don't get to identify others as "diseased".
Anyone who believes in "Psychiatry" "Psychology" or "Mental illness" is a disgusting worthless pathetic Subhuman bigot worthy of nothing but being put against a wall and shot.
Advocate of Anti-Psychology
Advocate of Pro Suicide.
Advocate of the Right to die belief for all individuals.

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dr8gonwolf666 Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014  Student
hmm... I agree with you about mental illness. I don't really believe in madness. No worries, I think you'll be able to reach your goal and get that level of skill :) I am self taught and started out with nothing either. Thanks for faving, btw.
Natsuko-Hiragi Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2014  Professional Photographer
Hey thank you for watching us^^
pinnoko Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
well I got called a scientologist for putting the picture that said they tell you depression hurt's but they won't tell you antidepressants kill. and I also put a description at the bottom 
SuicidalArtist000 Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2014   General Artist
Because their spoiled control fetish dictates they must scream with tears of rage/discrimination whenever someone disagrees with their bigoted practice.
I couldn't care less for "Scientology" but "psychiatry"/"mental illness" control fetish freaks still usually try to claim that i'm a scientologist as an excuse for their failing bigotry.
Scientology may try to hold aspects of Anti psychiatry, but they are two different things, and only whiny spoiled "psychiatry"/"mental health/illness" complainers try to associate the two as being the same.
pansejra Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Thanx 4 the :+fav: :)
Pintoro Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2014
Thanks for the fave!
OnAMoonlitNight Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you for adding "Da Svidaniya" to your favorites, it means a lot. 
xx nos sunt infiniti et natum esse verum xx
[ we are infinite and born to be true ]
pop2810 Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for thr fav ;)
er49563 Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013  Student General Artist
we stand for a lot of the same things.  it doesn't matter if your skill has not reached it's full potential-- you already have your mind.  :)
DominiqueDuong Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2013  Student General Artist
Thanks for the fave!
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